While I want a break every now and then (who doesn’t?) once I disrupt the momentum of my routine it feels hard to shift back into gear.
Too much to do and not enough time
Since our return from 3 weeks of visiting family and friends, I have struggled to find time to paint. Everything else seemed more important. While studio time felt like a priority, somehow I never got to it.
Over the weekend I read this quote:
What we really want to do is what we are really meant to do.Julia Cameron
That got me to thinking. There are some powerful questions inherent in it.
- What is this ‘want’ telling me?
- If I mean what I say, what am I MEANT to do?
- And what am I prepared to do about it?
I already knew the answers
Today, studio time easily became the first order of my day. I had a fun, productive morning and the result are to the left.
I haven’t done much in acrylics in the past few years so I’m surprisingly pleased with this.
Here’s what I think happened:
Wanting to do something makes it feel optional, something for when the ‘real’ work is complete. Perhaps that reflects a childhood lesson. “Don’t be selfish. You don’t always get what you want. “
Seeing my desire to be creative as something I am meant to do, the inner dialog changed to “I have a responsibility to do this.” Not in a heavy way, though but more like “Wow! This is my life’s purpose. What’s more important than that?”
What does your ‘want’ tell you?
Have you chosen it as a priority? What helped you do that? And if not a priority yet, what would help?
Share in the comments. I’d love to hear more.